I knew Kenneth James MacDonald as Dexter. This nickname was bestowed upon him by Elsa, long before she became my wife, at a bar he (and I) frequented, where she worked. Before we get too deep, allow me to clarify. I know what you’re thinking, but no, this had nothing to do with Dexter brand bowling shoes. I can only imagine the sordid tales necessary for a Canadian national to acquire the Dexter nickname based solely on his association with a particular brand of bowling shoe. Alas, I know no sordid tales about Ken. Rather, this had everything to do with the semi-famous, albeit fictional, serial killer.
As you probably know, Ken was neither a blood splatter expert, or a serial killer, and I don’t think he bore even a slight resemblance to Michael C. Hall. On one crisp Saratoga night long ago, he did however, share the same first name as someone the police were looking for. A man who probably wasn’t a blood splatter expert, but very well could have been a serial killer. And to make a long story substantially shorter, that was enough for Elsa to start calling him Dexter.
Fast forward a few months and I found myself entering what I’m willing to say was Ken’s favorite bar. I don’t believe Ken was a patron at many bars, but I know he liked wine, and I know he enjoyed fine wine even more, and this bar, well, let’s just say it had a grand selection of fine wine.
On this particular evening, to my dismay, the bar was quite busy. At the time I was pursuing the bartender Elsa, and the abundance of patrons meant less opportunity to convince her, even if she didn’t know it yet, that my good looks and charming demeanor were important things missing from her life. So I settled into the only open seat at the bar and surveyed the room.
The lounge was full of self-aggrandizing pricks with a thirst for discussion involving wealth, power, and new conquests. In a nutshell, it was full of assholes. I sighed. Elsa was busy and I sensed it would be a while before she could break free long enough to take my order, let alone refill the now empty glass sitting in front of the smart dressed fellow next to me.
I was reaching for my phone when Elsa appeared out of nowhere to proclaim, “This is Dexter!” She motioned towards the gentleman next to me, whose glass I was surprised to see had already been filled.
I paused, off guard, and turned towards my neighbor. “I’m Tal. Pleasure to meet you Dexter.”
“Actually my name is Ken.” He smiled a warm, kind smile, sounding almost apologetic.
“No, that’s Dexter!” she said, placing a glass in front of me. Then, just as quickly as she appeared, she vanished, leaving me with a healthy pour of bourbon, and, unbeknown to me at the time, an introduction to a new friend.
I grabbed my glass and raised it, turning to Dexter. “To new friends,” I said.
“I can’t argue with that. Cheers!” he exclaimed. Our glasses clinked.
I noticed he was alone. “So ‘Dexter’ is it? What brings you here?”
“I come here to unwind after work. The wine is a bonus.” He grinned, taking another sip.
“Me too.” I added sheepishly, “Only I don’t drink much wine.” I filled my mouth with bourbon, questioning the intelligence of my last statement. Motioning to the rest of the room, I added “So how do you know all of these assholes?”
He looked at me, then out to the room of weirdos, then back to me. “I don’t.”
I was immediately at ease. “Dexter my friend, I think we’re gonna get along just fine.”
He lifted his glass without hesitation. “Cheers to that.”
Over the next eight years our paths crossed countless times. Most always at the bar. Most always with Elsa as our bartender. I realized he was the only patron I actually looked forward to seeing. If I visited on a night he wasn’t there, I found myself missing our chats. Ken was a beacon of sanity in a weird, weird world. No hidden agenda, no bullshit. A solid human. A good guy. A friend.
Elsa and I were married just over four months ago. Ken and Ivy would have been at the wedding had they not already had travel plans. Instead, we all met for dinner before their trip, to catch up. The memories came flooding back. Our banter didn’t miss a beat. We were in a different restaurant, in a different town, but mentally we were all right back in the bar, talking smack about all the weirdos we know and laughing at our collective fortunes, and misfortunes.
Unwinding.
But life happens. And even though we had plans to get together after their vacation, Ken and Ivy never took that trip, and as difficult as it is to comprehend, I never saw him again.
Meeting friends later in life is an underrated joy. The older we get, the more set in our ways we become, and the easier it is to push people away rather than let them in. Ken was a shining reminder of that joy.
I miss you Dex.